Throwing a penny into a fountain symbolizes hope. In the few seconds you close your eyes and toss your penny, in just those couple seconds, you are hoping and genuinely wishing that something magically will change once you open your eyes.
In just two weeks I won't be able to bubble in "student" anymore, but will be considered "unemployed." As my time as a college student quickly comes to an end, I've been throwing over a dozen pennies into this fountain of uncertainty. I will admit, I am deathly afraid of the future. The lack of security makes me want to throw up sometimes. Each penny I throw in represents my hope that everything will turn out fine in the future. It represents my hopes in finding a job where I will enjoying doing, but will also be able to pay the bills. My hopes that my relationships with my college friends will last a lifetime. My hopes that I will be able to be "that girl" I've been trying to become. My hopes that I will continue to make my parents proud even after college.
I've filled the fountain to the brim with pennies and I feel all I have left to do is open my eyes and just walk away because in the end, I can keep throwing these useless pennies, but I am not in control of what will ultimately happen. And that scares the shit out of me.
Jeremiah 29:11-14
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